I was walking towards the lounge.  My neck/back hurt & the shoulder/elbow pain was getting worse by the minute.  So many people rushing about.  So much noise.  I really needed to sit in a somewhat quiet area and massage my arm/neck.

I saw the golden sign of the lounge class & entered.  I remained there for a long time; had a light snack and was even able to lay down on a couch.  When the announcement regarding the boarding gate came through {& since it’s a long walking distance away}, I decided I’ll head there early; taking my time.

Upon reaching the lounge’s reception area – heading out – I saw an elderly man, UAE national – slowly making his way to the reception desk.  Our eyes met & he smiled shyly at me – I heartily smiled back.
The woman at the reception desk – after taking a look at his boarding pass, informed him that he’s in the wrong lounge class.
Him: "Wrong class?"
Her: "Yes. You need to go to the opposite side – you’ll find the other lounge there."
He turned slowly – a look of confusion in his eyes: "Why? I’m in Emirates.."
At that point, a male EK employee approached him and pointed to the lounge’s location across the completely-packed-with-people carpeted hall.
& it’s then when I heard him say:
 
"Wrong Emirates? It's one Emirates..."

[I'm grasping 
for something -
stable.]

My mind is mute.
Photos will have to do.

[I just feel
I have
less & less to say.]

My life completely fell apart
in epic ways
in the past months.
Time to start renovating
- from scratch -
to create something
better...
again.

[I can't..
I can't wait for this to be over.]

"There are some nights when
sleep plays coy,
aloof and disdainful.
And all the wiles
that I employ to win
its service to my side
are useless as wounded pride,
and much more painful."

[...]

I know I've been away for a long time. 
I know that I've got emails & comments, unanswered.
I know that I miss you - my friends whom I've known for quite some time now.   
I know that some of you would understand, & others may not. 
...I'm deeply sorry.

I won't go into the details, but I will tell you this:-

I'm still going through one of the most difficult times of my life.

I don't have daily situations or thoughts to share with you - I apologize.  I'm not able to 'write' yet.  Writing this entry was mentally exhausting. 
What I do have to share are snap shots - of my surroundings; I went back to taking snaps a few weeks ago - thank God {maybe due to the minimal thought-process involved; just point & shoot}.  I did lose a tad of my passion for it though - I don't go out of my way to take a shot, as before; hopefully it's just due to the current circumstances.

I will try my best to update - with just snapshots - whenever possible. 
There will be no writing though...
Forgive me?

[elrezinah, Paul, thesahara,
mn~dubai, Ad_Queen & karamilah:
Your kindness and sympathy - at this time,
are more appreciated than any words
can ever express.  Thank you.]